*As the light flickers*
Yes Si Hui, I know that this blog is dying, but its most definitely not dead. I just dont have the mood to do anything about it frankly speaking. Then again, I cant say that I have much of a mood to do anything at all....not without my ray of light......
Rin left for Korea, I believe, to be with her mother on Thursday and since then, I have not heard from her. Nothing on Facebook, nothing on the other social sites that she frequents, nothing on the phone, nothing on the messenger. She has effectively vanished from my life as I see it. How then can I feel alive when I dont even know the condition of my girl?
These three days have been torturous, filled with anguish and the like. The emptiness that accompanies it can never be explained in words. The void that resides within me grows ever so surely. The cold that is in my heart continues to freeze my feelings, my interests. If you were to see my eyes, they will most certainly lifeless, nothing but mere spheres with hardly any shine to it. To tell you honestly, this blog is not as dead as I am.
But then again, it is during this period of absence that I can grow and mature as a person. I have promised her that I will remain strong, to focus on my studies. She respected my decisions of spending less time with her. She has allowed me to pursue my own dreams and desires. She has always allowed me to be myself, never restricting me intentionally, never caging me in her standards. I believe this is the time to show her what this free bird can do.
"Bye ben chan...u take care of uself. Stay strog n be safe.i will be missing u...=__="
I'll be waiting for you to come back to me Rin, and when you do you'll see a stronger Ben.
~Because you're worth it~
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